Ok so I won't be 9 weeks for two days. But it's hard to figure the days now but gimme a sec...61 days.
The big news this week is I worked a full 5 days. Bad news is Wednesday afternoon last hour of work I cried from pain/emotions. I wouldn't say the pain was *that* bad. I mean, it was bad from whatever muscle manipulation PT the night before making my neck feel like I had bad whiplash add in turning my head for 8 hrs but it was more the emotions making me cry. Kept having irrational thoughts of what if I end up a cripple and hubs leaves me. What? I swear to effing God this is perimenopausal as I never had these kind of intrusive thoughts before. Ugh. I hate crying in public. I am not that girl. And I just had tears rolling down cheeks back in my corner window cube. Not full on hysterical or sobbing. Only someone saw and I think told on me so my boss was like "if you need to work half days..." and I'm like it's just a bad day. And I was right. Next day wasn't great but not as bad. And that Thurs PT did something that helped. So I am pleased with myself for 5 days straight. After 9 weeks of not. Go me! Celebrate the wins.
Note to self in how wonderful Mr Juice has been. He heard in my voice at work how bad Wednesday was so he emptied the dishwasher and did the sink full of dishes I was dreading (without being asked). Then Friday took down the outside xmas lights. Both before I got home so I wouldn't even get a chance to beat him to it. This man loves me and shows me in little tiny ways daily. Because I am probably pushing myself a bit too hard here and there to be back to my "normal".
Want to write down the new exercises since I've already forgotten many of my lumbar ones from 9 months ago. Blue stretchy band. Grab underhanded, shoulder width apart thumbs point outward. Strech band outward. I call this the Fonzy stretch due to the thumbs even though they point away from body. Aaaaayyy! Feel shoulder blades close in. Next close knot in band in doorway at head hight, pull bands down to mid thigh. Next in door at hip height elbows bent, pull to hips again feeling shoulder blades squeeze. These along with the four on wall - snow angels, touchdown jesus Y's, long arm strech clap, and hip to wall full twist full arm claps in each direction.
In sleeping on side news (an odd barometer I know but I went from can't at all 4 weeks ago) to now I can sleep on right side for over an hour at a time and believe I'm that way a third of the night going from right side to back and right side again. Left side still aches if on it for more than 15-20 mins but thats up from 5 mins two weeks ago so, again - improvements. Just takes much longer than I'd like.
Still some nerve pain down left side. Don't remember if I documented I notice it's mainly when leaning on that arm (brushing teeth, sitting on toilet) or reaching to side or above head and oddly when I yawn. Right side nerve pain occasionally but less than left.
Still burping a lot but not bile like I was week 2-4. Just never was a huge belcher before so it feels like it's all the time yet it's not enough for me to remember to take the pepcid much so I guess it's not so bad as I went thru that first bottle a lot.
Smoking - while back at it now (started back at 1 a day 44 days post op) have kept it to 8-11 smokes a day as apposed to 30-35 pre surgery. So at least in the week of saying fuck it, didn't go off the deep end and increase more.
I think that's enough updates for now. Still icing 2-3 times a day and heating pad much of the evenings.
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