OK so the minor details

You want to know the details right? Well even if you don't here they are for my own edification.

I told you guys six days ago about my thoughts on larger nips and that I POAS of an internet cheapie to stark white?  Well I did that again Thursday and there was a hint of a hint of a ghost of a line.  Enough to make me go through the trash and find the one from Wednesday and it was there too.  But was it evap lines or real?  This convinced me Friday to take the FRER.  And it wasn't a squinter, it was a full on line.

Other symptoms?  The wack-ass dreams.  I have had very real-seeming dreams...when I normally don't remember more than maybe one dream a week - I've been remembering one to three dreams a night.  (And why are the Chicago Blackhawk team showing up so often?)  These are not "Oh, I'm pregnant" dreams, just vivid normal dreams.

And yes the sore boobs.  So much so that last night I wore a sports bra to bed.  Holy hell did that help!  And I'm the kind that loves to come home and take off the bra so it seems unfair that now I'm wanting to put something on.  Ever hear of pregnancy sinusitis?  Yep, blowing my nose a lot or sneezing.  Really thought this was a myth.   And now lets talk TMI, I already have a freakin hemorrhoid?  WTF.  I've never had one before so this is def a new one on me.  And I'm itchy at night - I googled this one because I thought it was weird but I guess it's not as uncommon as I thought.  But it's the "I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin" kind of itchiness.  Jeff reminded me I want all of this.  And I'm like "Yes, I want to be PG and I'll live with whatever comes with it I just didn't know one of them would be even at 4 weeks 1 day to be as itchy as all get out."

And poor Jeff, he gets to deal with the hormones.  I thought the levels from IVF were bad but I am now going from laughing hysterics to crying then laughing at the fact that I'm crying.  It's full on cray cray.  I feel like I'm not even me right now.

And Pregnancy Brain!  I've heard of it of course but I really thought it'd kick in later.  Holy hell do I feel like a simpleton.  Nothing major, but a LOT of kind of "duh Kati!" moments.

And finally my scare last night.  I had really bad cramps that woke me up at 1am.  The grab a pillow and sit hunched over and moan cramps.  I went to the bathroom and checked - no bleeding.  So I just took two tylenol and tried to go back to sleep.  Then and again this morning I googled and it appears that this can be normal *OR* can be miscarriage.  But I've heard plenty talk about "I had what I thought were period cramps but turns out I was PG" so I'm trying to believe that's simply what this was.  Just the only time I had cramps that bad was the one period after my miscarriage so of course I can't help but freak out a little.

Oh - and as for how I told Jeff?  I waited all day Friday (got through my five hour work shift) and kept off the internet a bit to avoid spilling the beans so that he would be the first person who heard.  When he came home I simply said "I thought we could go out to dinner tonight....to celebrate."  Big smiles.

And last but not least the first two FRERs from Friday and Saturday.