IUI #4 Done

So it's done.

And the one thing I can say is I've become even more superstitious then I even thought I would be.  I'm talking over the top superstitious.  I had one my lucky socks from Btay (Chicago Blackhawk's arglye), I had on my NIAW necklace (When, Not IF), I had on my common thread bracelet (made from the same string connecting me to over 80 women with infertility), and I had the "hope" stone in my pocket that my SIL had given me last mothers day that I kept rubbing like a worry bead.  At 11:11 I looked at my clock and told Jeff it was time to go, and since it was 11:11, I made a wish.  You've heard of that right?  And finally before we left, I looked at the cross we have hanging up in our kitchen from our retreat when preparing to get married and said a little prayer (and I'm agnostic!).  Oh, and I had asked everyone to think of me.

Basically what I'm saying is I asked for fate in any freakin form for this to help make it work.

And Jeff did great.  His previous post wash numbers for #1-#3 were 8 mil, 1.5mil, and 900 thousand.  This time was 12mil.  Woohoo!!!  And motility was 89%!!  OMG great post wash for once!  So yes, you could say I have a little more hope now than I did this previous week.  But I'm still scared shitless.  But I know there is nothing that can change me from feeling that fear.  But now I need to just remember it's all out of my hands.  Whatever happens, happens.