Blog Challenge; Day One - Blog title

Today's topic?  Why my blog is named what it is.  The story behind my blog name is in this post.  My first actual blog, twenty months ago.  So I will not re-hash that. 

But, looking back at that post did get me to thinking about how I had no idea how appropriate the title was at the time.  When I came up with it, we had been trying for 12 cycles in 10 months.  At that point, it seemed like I had "struggled" already.  Don't get me wrong.  In some ways, the first year was the hardest!  Because it's when I learned about charting, over analyzed everything, cried with almost every negative test, and felt like I was a total failure because I didn't know "what was wrong". 

But in another way, I had no idea the real struggle lay ahead of me.  Getting the MFI Dx, and then learning I had low P4s & slight LPD was hard - on both Jeff and I.  Then getting our hopes up with improved numbers with vitamins for Jeff.  Then finally excepting medical ART intervention - but thinking, "well, it will work the first time because our Dx is really not that bad!"  And finally having to accept having to break for over eight months due to finances.  And now, that it's coming to an end in two weeks and we'll be able to cycle again. I feel like I'm back to where I was April 2011!  But I try to remember that hope is a good thing (so says my favorite movie Shawshank Redemption).  And the juice will be worth the squeeze damn it!