I'm trying not to build this up too much in my head, but it's really hard when I've been waiting eight months to do this. I know if we'd had the money, I would have done this right away and not have had the time to over analyze it, daydream about it, etc. But I did. So now I am stuck here; excited and scared.
Excited to be doing something different. Something that might do the trick. Excited that this might be the turning point in our IF saga to bring us our beautiful baby.
But scared that it will be like last time, and still get the BFN. Scared I will inject myself wrong. Scared it will work too well and we'll have to cancel the cycle because of too many follies. Scared it will work with sticky babies but we'll get triplets or quads and have no idea how we'll be able to afford a large brood.
AARRGGHHH!!!! I hate how IF can be the biggest roller coaster of emotions!
Edit to add after first shot done: I think I did great. And while the needle did not hurt, pushing the meds in did. Oh well, it's over now. And now I can relax for doing it tomorrow.
Ice bar in Vegas 2012
Congrats on getting your first shot out of the way. It seemed to take us a few days to get into a routine and then when we were done with injects and waiting for our IUI to happen we didn't know what to do with ourselves! Fingers crossed for you!
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